a cup full of charlie

ALEX IS A JEW BITCH! D:<

He ended up being like the others. D:

I really haven’t been doing too much. Alex and I never see eachother anymore really, but when we do, it is epic. We went out with Hannah and she came up with the idea to make a “portable nightclub”. We are yet to do it, but we did get the posters finished. OH! The night we made the posters was so fun and funny. There was this guy with Hannah and he is kinda… How do you say this nice? Psycho. And he would not shut his pie hole and after we dropped off Hannah, we were nice and hungout with him longer. I will give you an example of how bad it was. When we dropped off Hannah, we were perky and smiling and about an hour afterwords and I mean after A LOT of words, our backs were slouched, we were seriously depressed and wishing we had a gun, we kept zoning out. You would think we had just got out of bed after two hours of sleep at 4:00 in the morning after a night of partying. We finally dropped him off at 2:00 am and he acted like a criminal as we got closer to his house. Not literally, but like, “WHERE ARE WE GOING!? ARE YOU GOING TO MAKE ME LEAVE YOU!?” And we were in front of his house. “Nope! Just drove to this one house out of the millions in the Memphis area so we can sit and hear you talk more! :)” “OH! OKAY! :D” “No seriously, please leave.” After that, Alex came over and my mom was still up so we watched her medical shows then ‘3rd Rock from the Sun’. One episode turned into four or five and Alex didn’t leave until 4:30 am.

Anyway! It was fun. When we do the “portable nightclub” I will blog about it unless something exciting happens between now and then. Tata!

I have been in a relationship with this guy and he is totally amazing! I am finally happier than I have ever been and it feels great! I already see changes in me that are for the better and it only goes up hill from here, right? He has made me think about the future more than ever and makes me want to succeed. I want to be his everything because he sure is mine. It is weird that I haven’t found him before now because we have a lot of mutual friends. I guess everyone has their time and we finally have ours. He also has an interest in art and I LOVE that. He will definitely be drawing and painting me stuff! Hehe! He can dance like a black gurl and is super funny. I love him. My family loves him. My friends love him. How did I get so lucky? What turn did I make to make everything so great?

I am SO fucking ready to move out. My house has roaches and they fucking piss me off. I am gonna have an all out war with them. Bye-bye bugs! I hate them hate them HATE them! Not to mention they are embarrassing. I hate having people come over because I always fear one will pop out JUST to piss me off. I understand that everyone on the block has them, but we can prevent them. I HATE THEM SO MUCH! It is time for change… MUAHAHAHA! I am going crazy. I pulled my bed out to the living room and I am cleaning my room. This will be the first battle move…

Oh God. It is thundering. That means I am gonna be afraid of the lightning all day.

Well I am gonna rearrange my room now. See ya!

Sometimes I miss my old friends and although memories are just memories, sometimes I can’t help but to think back. I miss my old friends. I really do. In Arizona all my peers were friendly and generally happy people. Sure they didn’t have much to fret about, but the ones that I am in touch with now are still the same, just a little more mature. I think when I moved to Memphis I lost hope in humanity. Sure there are friendly people, not EVERYONE is angry. However, I don’t see children being treated as children. A lot of people here slap their babies for crying. Why!? Why do they do this? This is nauseating. Not to be going into personal business and I am not going to say any names, but one of my dear friends mother won’t even allow them to go out with the exception of weekends ( and this is during the Summer. You don’t even know how hard it is to see them during the school year). Parents are people we can go to when we need them. Parents are the ones who love us the most, but some of there actions are not acceptable. I am only 17, so I can’t really say what is acceptable or not, especially to a stranger. All I can do it learn from others mistakes and not repeat them.

People wonder why crime is so large right now. Please do not think I am being an ignorant person by this, but the upbringing of a child plays a huge part. Only a part. Not entirely. The greatest love is from a mother or father. There is no better joy than to have a child. Why hasn’t this been showing to me lately? I know my parents love me and I am VERY grateful for that, but I feel extremely sorry for those who don’t see it. Weather it is because of the parents or the child’s refusal. If there is anything I want you to take from me is, take this: Love your parents. They may not be perfect at the job, but they could have easily not took it. If you have a bad parent, a good parent, only one parent, no parents, and old parent, a young parent, a dumb parent, a smart parent, a “friend” parent or even a grandparent… Love them. They DO love you. Learn from their mistakes, then forget their mistakes. Just don’t forget them.

I realize this blog was very “bi-polar”. Haha. I went from one thing to another and I wanted to talk about memories and stuff, but I took a completely different route. My conclusion and summary is this: Parents are not perfect. They can piss you off and change your life, but they are your parents. Love them and respect them. Some parents cannot be changed, but YOU have the ability to change yourself.

Til the next time we talk… Good night.

As we all know, Gay people are supposed to have awesome taste in fashion. Maybe it is true and maybe it isn’t. So this is my first attempt at giving advice to shoppers who have a low budget and have high tastes.

The biggest thing to look for is CLEARANCE! This is my best friend. You can find some of the hottest items for half or even more off the original retail price. This is great for those people who don’t have a lot to spend, but want a lot to gain. Sometimes you can also find out of season items for 75% off. This is a great way to bargain shop! What is cool about that is you can wear those items when they ARE in season and people will say,”Oh wow! They have great taste!” Also check out stores like “Plato’s Closet”. They are all used clothing, but are extremely hot off the market and very inexpensive.

For people who like to be independent in their closet, look for VINTAGE clothing. Yes. It is a lot like places such as “Plato’s Closet”, but not as hot off the market. You can find some VERY interesting clothing there and sometimes they can be pricey, sometimes not at all. You can find designer clothing for VERY cheap. you can also check out local THRIFT shops. The people there don’t know the value of the item and are looking for anything they can get. It may seem weird wearing second hand clothing, but that is the greatness of the washer!

So when you are needing clothes and don’t know where to look, check out these things. Don’t be afraid to get caught looking at clearance or in a thrift store. You never know what you can find, and if you don’t see something you like, check again next week! Stores always get new shipments in! Have fun and happy shopping!!

Well. It has been awhile since I posted so I figured I would just talk about what I have been doing. :]

Last week I stayed with Alex for a couple days and I had a lot of fun. We pretty much chilled at her house and played DDR. We are on a goal to lose weight and keep it off, so before I left her house, I did some exercises and it I really felt it in my stomach and thighs. When I got home I played God of War and beat it. :] That was some serious gaming! And I stayed up for 40 hours. So I was awake during three days. The fifth, sixth and seventh. Before I stayed the night with Alex, she stayed the night at my house. She went to bed real early so we woke up early. I found out that my clothes that I ordered were on backorder. Which means I wouldn’t get them for a few months. So we canceled the order and just went to American Eagle and bought crap. I am so happy to finally get some clothes. God knows I needed them. Soon I will be starting a list of 101 things to do in 1001 days. Hopefully, it will come out okay.

That is all for now. I hope you all are having a great summer. Stay safe. <3

For the past couple of days, I have been hanging out with Alex. On Thursday night, she came over and asked me to go out to dinner with her and her mother, so I did. On the way out, my friend Ethan was being all nice and asked if he could join us. Sadly, Alex told him that she would feel like she was pressing her luck with her mother. So that was a “no”. After dinner at Applebee’s, we called Ethan and asked if he would want to do something. He accepted but of course living in the shit hole of Tennessee, there wasn’t much to do. So we drove around for awhile and Alex said,”Do you think Chris Brown would want to hangout?” Ethan called and he said he’d “love to”. (Sorry. It is boring right now. :P) So we spent like… an hour and a half trying to get there and when we did, my mom called. :/ She told me to be home within the hour and I was like,”Fuck no man!” And she was all,”D:<” and I was like,”o.o” So she let me stay.

After being there for a bit we decided to drink a little and it was awesome. I was easily pissed off and Ethan, but we worked everything out. Chris had glow sticks and was twirling them in the dark and it was pretty fucking trippy. :3

Long story short, We were awake all night and day and it sucked. :/ But I had fun with my best friend in the whole wide world! And somewhere between these events I bought new clothes! So I slept for fifteen hours on Friday night. :/ What was the most hours you stayed up/slept for?

Finally! I am back with a fresh new cup! I am so excited to start the new blog! Thanks a bunch Alicks! She finally got her own domain and I am thrilled about that! I do still appreciate the space on Miri’s domain. I wish all the best for her.

Stop on by later. I will post about some stuff when I’m not so tired.  Thanx! <3